I hate myself so much after unsuccessfully being around people, coming across as insecure and not confident and weird and shy. I hate myself. I punish myself for socialising like right now. Feel so bad about myself. Never want to do it again. Why. I'll never get better if I just make myself feel this way. I'm not that guy, it was fine. I hated when she said my anxiety was rubbing off on her tho, that made me wanna get out fast I don't wanna ruin things for her.