my work and its benefits only exist in the psychic space, there is nothing tangible to it, not even the reactions of my clients that i help, i dont know if they actually acre about the work i do for them. I feel like if my head distorts too much all my reality will distort as i dont spent time in tangible matiral spaces enoughm not to see the outcome of my work blah blavh glb blah. Like, for example if i were a carpenter --- I would see my work in the world, I could see how people reacted to it. Pure, real.