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@kesikesiluv Dont fuck up your progress trying to rush the process. If February didn't march, April may.

Out beliefs become self reinforcing

When were young we chased what feels good in the the moment with little regard for the future impact on our health and relationships. We then learn the relationship between our actions and the consequences and start to balance how much instant gratification pleasure seeking we do. But what if this process continues and we no longer prioritise our joy in the moment

I think when I was feeling energised it was an energetic kinda mad part of me taking the wheel, I've been balanced by a more subdued but responsible part in conflict with it now.

Very much enjoying the internal family systems framework. I feel mental peace after doing ifs exercises

I don't like sharing, fuck off. I know I'm being unreasonable and irrational and making shit up in my head but also what if I'm not.

Think my gf is annoyed at me.. barely said a word to me this morning and is now recounting her dreams with our housemate.. she usually tells me :( but it's because I didn't hug her last night, but I didn't hug her because she was a bitch, I asked if she wanted to spend some time together and she said yes but was on your phone doing something, and for the next half an hour she was doing that thing and when I asked what she was doing no reply, I asked again and she shouted at me. Then I was like calm down wtf and she was like if I don't answer just leave it I'm busy. So yea I didn't want to hug. Fuck her.

Have a hearing test in an hour. Hopefully I get a hearing aide and I'm able to hear music again. Apparently bad hearing can lead to Alzheimer's and isolation

I just asked what she was doing... No need to be a bitch

Yea maybe my energy is dying down now.. we had a good run.. but idk maybe it's just that it's past midnight and I'm tired maybe I'll still feel it tmrw

Fucking ai man it's so good but also I feel so detached from my work. But if it creates an income then I don't mind, can find something else to do with my time then. I wanna do wood work build things like houses and furniture and kitchen fittings.

I feel energised, potentially bordering on manic. My mum's dad had bipolar and she defo don't seem normal. Been depressed while and I feel like I'm out of it at the moment been working a lot l, lots of ideas, they feel like the best ideas like I'm going to be rich and everyone will subscribe to my new product pocket PT V2. Called track that now, and I'm enjoying building it and am excited and had a good therapy session and love ifs and feel more compassionate towards myself and have the tools to do so much easier.