BE_CALM

dogs welcome, people tolerated

whenever I see an advert I try think why am I being targeted by it. what did I say, what recent purchases has someone on my ip recently made etc

I just ate a choccy Yog and was not conscious from the first bite till the last. only when I realised there's was no more left did I come to. I just lost time to a yoghurt. I was really hungry

Morrisons wouldn't let me out of the security gates. when I paid for my shit I picked up my jumper and realised there was an avocado hiding under id not paid for. thought I could get away with it and that no one could possible know about this hidden avo. however when I goto leave, they won't open. Im like how.. so I just pay for the cado and next time I try leave they open. wtf

I'm very aware of when a part of me is triggered and embodying me when I'm with my girlfriend. I'm aware of the negative consequences that can have on our relationship. however I'm just starting to realise that I am often in similar states when interacting with other people, people that might have been friends had I been less triggered. I think if I can meet these people in a calmer more self directed state then my friendly relationships would probably improve a lot.

abuse alcohol? I could never. I love it too much

I'm leaving, I'm going to X... it's not an airport you don't have to announce your departure

how do I give myself permission to be calm and enjoy my evening?

I shall allow myself to enjoy my evening. I will not feel guilty about not going out. I'm not going to, and why make myself miserable for that fact. I used to love staying in. I want tonight to be another night like that.