Hell_en

well I'm just not a huge fan of that movie, it insists upon itself

Izzy is so hot and pretty

what do you call ranch when it's in a tree?

I need to get this onto a local embedding model asap. fucking Sam altcunt

am I growing? I just noticed part of me doesn't want myself to get into another relationship right now. it wants to grow and keep growing and is worried that I'll merge into them again and lose myself. I want to keep going.

hi Izzy I'm at the beach. hi Dan I'm at my house, however I do like beach.i like beach, you wanna go beach together? yes, I do, which beach?

if you're talking to someone and you get triggered and let them know, and that bothers them or they don't know how to respond, maybe you're not a good match? I think they should care about you being triggered

hey fuck you Sam altman just saying idk. I don't like working with AI it's boring and soul crushing. is it? idk. i don't like it. I do not but like what are my options?

I am so lonely. I just want someone to goto the beach with tbh. I'm at the beach by myself right now, wish I had someone to talk to and enjoy it with. maybe I gotta learn to enjoy being here by myself

we all just here searching. I thought I'd found it thats why it's so hard to let go. but she doesn't seem it that way, she's didn't think she's found it so I gotta accept that I didn't either and keep looking.

I saw my shadow, it doesn't want her to succeed lol

my brother has bacteria in his brain and spinal fluid and I'm worried about him. dad is worried. hopefully the antibiotics work and he can go live his life. he had so much planned , it seemed like he was ready to change his life and go live a rich full life. it would be so depressing if he didn't make it. life would seem so cruel.

I want a partner to share life with, not to bring life to me

no free man willingly sports the mullet mustache combo

educator, comes from educere, Latin for draw out.

you must suffer for your heart

schizo in me is flagging openais model naming. terra Luna sol. all cryptos. what does it mean. what's going to happen?

what's the difference between a casual dinner party and a pirate orgy?

I am ok, I have been meditating most days. my mind is not running my life. I can detach and see them for what they are, I don't spiral. my relationship with myself is healthier

surrender to life. surrender

when you start fantasising about reunion, remember the whole woman, not just the magical one. Not just the soulful, alive, beautiful figure. Also the one who crossed lines, created insecurity, returned when hurt, and did not protect your trust.

The wounded boy would rather stay near the mother/anima figure and be humiliated than lose access to warmth.

I'm tired. woke up too early. but also I want to share life with someone

just wanna note an idea that I liked of building a wooden platform in the crow sitting spot. I could take a blanket and meditate on it, or have romantic picnics if I find myself in love. would also make a nice eating spot for the crows

information consumes attention

why are you here? .

there's nothing on my phone worth looking at, so why do I keep looking at it.

speed running getting over a 5 year relationship rn. everyone says it'll take months, I'm just over a month and I'm done. I'm healthy and ready to go... ok well define 'over' someone? yea I still think about her everyday, so what?

I can't do this job. I don't know how. I can't pretend anymore. I don't know how to provide a working package, I don't know their setup. I'm doing this blind. it's so stressful. feel like a failure. not fair. I'm blind

why is life so hard. I think I'd be content if I had more friends and was invited to do more things regularly. but then I probably wouldn't be happy if I had that. I reckon I could be content with what I have now but I want a partner and I don't think I could have a partner without more of a life first

putting moisturiser on your face and feeling like Patrick Bateman