fortitude

feeling smart rn. solar charge co troller wasn't delivering power to the load. couldn't figure out why. disconnected all power, solar and battery and it worked. turning it off n on again baby

I have a 100Ah battery in my bag. I'm going to try to covertly charge it near the campsites reception. fuck my plan has been foiled. the space I need has been taken by some elder french people. I have to wait for them to leave. I think they're planning a bike ride.

I feel fucked. I think I'm sleep deprived. so many noises in the Marseille flat, mosquitos, cold, not enough space, too hot. bed late, wake up early. brain is not working today. keep forgetting what I'm doing. asking myself what I'm doing and not knowing, ordering things wrong. just dumb. I need to sleep. also felt kinda sick today. in bed at 7pm. just gonna read and lie down and drink water

not sure how short term relationships make me feel. I am going to miss her now. I feel like I'm losing something again, but I'd have rather met her than not. was fun and maybe we'll see eachother again idk. :(

They say love saves, but it is love that teaches man how deeply he can bleed without dying

I keep having this dream that I have important exams coming up and I'm not prepared for them at all. like I've been messing around instead of studying and it's caught up to me and now I'm worried I'm going to fail. I ask my smart friends for help going to though past papers but it feels useless and too late. there are so many complicated mathematical techniques I should have learned but have no idea what they are.

little tip for all you aspiring daters. don't go straight for asking for a date. form a connection over text first, live texting, no waiting mins or hours between messages. have fun and engage and play. you'll both be more excited to meet that way.

I will ask every girl on hinge to the beach. one will say yes.

I've been banned from hinge and it's actually devastating. the girl I was speaking to said she hates the ghosting culture if it and I agreed, and now it will look like I've disappeared on her. I am so sorry Emma. I think it was because I made a joke and someone took offense. basically she didn't understand my question and responded as if I'd asked something else and it said she was doing a PhD so I said "i asked when, PhD my ass" thinking she'd get the joke and play along.. but now I'm banned.

tell her or I will. she deserves to know you slimy fuck ball

sister in a hot tub with 3 single dudes. Ita strange and I don't know what to do. nothing better happen.

I'd love a partner that also needs a rest after being around a load of people. we can retreat together and not feel like there's something wrong with us

staying in a fancy airbnb with a hot tub with some pals, drinking wine, eating bread and cheese, going climbing in Fontainebleau

An idea that has stuck in my head, althought I wish it hadn't, is that an attractive person will never stay with you, it's just your turn with them. I dislike that idea a lot

no fap for a week now.

I finally did it. I found a peach tree in France. they were yellow peaches and a bit bitter but I feel like I accomplished my dream. still need to find the perfect peach but I can happily say this trip was worth it even if just for today.

c'est ok graine de serazin

would you rather have perfect memory, hearing, vision or reflexes?

the french word for unpredictable is imprevisible which is like not pre visible

I don't know what's going on with me. I am in a different country in a tent. I don't want to put my phone down. I think I've used gaming to numb myself. gaming and drugs. and now I only have my phone. I think I will end up detoxing from it all here but it'll be a process and I think things will come up. I am afraid to sleep. I want a partner in this life. I don't like living life alone.